I Think I Love You

There's something to be said about the caring nature of people. I, for one, have never felt lack of support and love. I have been fortunate enough to be abundant in friends and family, and their unwavering love and support. Humans, deep down at the core, are gracious, kind, and loving. This I have no doubt. 

When Trevor passed 2 years ago today, and my world seemed to crumble all around me,  I was quickly and lovingly blanketed in support, love, and kindness. Friends, family, and people I had never met, graciously offered shoulders to lean on. Even my ex did what he could to make things easier. I know...right?

2 years ago, I never thought I would get to this point where the hurting would be lessened to a dull ache. It seems like forever ago, and only yesterday. But the past is the past, and I don't live there anymore; it cannot be changed. These anniversary dates are not meant to be avoided or cursed; it is in these moments where we have to step out and step up... to stand at the fork in the road and choose the path that will take us on an even greater journey. 

I am sincerely grateful to Trevor for the love, respect, and kindness he brought to my life. I was one of the fortunate ones to have been loved so deeply.The time we spent together, as short as it was, has made me so keenly aware of what love should look like...and I refuse to settle for less. This picture is of the final words he wrote to me on my Valentine's Day card. 

Sometimes, we don't see how we are truly loved and cared for as we go about our busy lives. But I know it's there whenever I need it.

My message to you is this: when you are in the depths of despair; when you don't see how love could possibly come knocking at your door again, or that there is no way you could feel happy again---believe that it's possible. Believe that the brilliant light that is flickering inside of you will burst forth from deep within your core, shining a spotlight on love, because love is always there.

Know that, in this moment, and the next, and the next one after that, you will be led to better moments and greater clarity. That is the journey. Don't accept anything less than love. And don't treat yourself with anything less than love. 

"Love has no desire but to fulfill itself. But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires; To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night. To know the pain of too much tenderness. To be wounded by your own understanding of love; And to bleed willingly and joyfully." - Kahlil Gibran, The Prophet

I think I love you. It means more than love of another person.... It's also about loving yourself.

This is the place to understand about love and loss; respect and discovering, clarity and unfolding; moving on and evolving.

On this day, two years ago, I lost my love. During these last two years, I have seen others struggle in their relationships, and not treat themselves with enough love and respect to make things better. There is always a better way.

I figured it was time to marry my psychology degree and my love for writing, and put it into something useful. Hopefully, some solace and reassurance can be found here for those seeking it.

This blog is dedicated to Trevor.